Some call them poems, so maybe!
Poem of a cut
Generous and endless
Even after a spell of darkness
Even after the collapse of a system
Even after a flood above and under
I saw a miracle last night
There was a long red river
It’s running right behind my ear
The one that tends to hear more clear
I wonder if it carried a message
A tale of pain written on my skin
A tiny land from my existence
Covered in red tulips from within
A field of burns and sweat
A field free of nonsense
The sting didn’t even hurt
The pain that was unreal
Nothing was served but wine
A sensation beyond usual
A moment of bravery
Celebrate of a sad victory
Generous and endless
Even after a spell of darkness
Even after the collapse of a system
Even after a flood above and under
Ceremony of my dead memories now
Ceremony of my dead memories now
Ceremony of my dead memories now
Ceremony of my dead memories
But when you look up
Beautiful little girl,
Here, the sour things are sour,
and the red things, red.
The walls are the same warm brick blocks,
and the teas, boundlessly bitter.
Here, the moonlight still
flirts through the passing months;
and the days grow warmer.
The charm of young boys and playful sweethearts
still carries your heart away
away to the scent of night-blooming flowers
that, without asking anything in return,
drift past you and intoxicate you.
Here, there is still white beard,
there is still warm bread,
life is colorful,
they have God,
they take their walks,
couples are in each other’s arms,
their cats are plump.
But,
But,
But,
their ruler is merciless.
Erased
Today my body trembled twice from fear.
The fear of being far from her,
and the fear of being far from myself.
The fear of not knowing which one
can more slowly, particle by particle, erase me.
The fear of these separations
more uncertain than being driven alone
in the middle of a dark road
with the danger of a deer leaping out.
This is exactly the same feeling repeating itself,
only this time
it feels as though one thousand, two hundred and thirty-seven times more intense.
These days I am frightened,
and today my body trembled twice
with the hope of coming out of this ordeal whole.
We explode from within
and shatter from without,
but we will carry on.
Following the singular moment of existence
I am no one
I have no image
I have no voice
I am not the crown of creation
I have no god
I am merely a shadow
In this chaotic world
Born from illusions and suspicions
I have no name
No trace
No sun
No sky
I remain flowing only in silence
I’ve lost myself in mirrors
My presence is but waves
In search of stories
Without past or future
Art is my only touch
The only light in the cave of my mind
From this endless darkness
An invisible truth emerges
Silently
Eternal in my absence
In this void, I am an unknown dance
Without origin
Just a sound in the wilderness
My footsteps invisible
Only a mirage following the singular moment of existence
Powerful hands
Carefree shattered mirrors
Endless thoughts of the dawn
A blank sheet of paper
A closed window to the luminous world
I am a dot on the map of the universe
Unattached, nameless, infinite
I must write before I dry up
In a world that doubts me
Perhaps in this cold
In this silence
My unheard voice will find a home
Where my lost self may find a glimmer and warmth
With no proof of my existence or any trace
A riddle in the dimensions of the infinite
Tonight, my colors
Are lost in the twists of my moments
I am a collection of unseen whirlpools
Whirlpools deep, silent, and traceless
Tonight, I seek myself in this vague interference
With each step of these quiet wanderings
Perhaps I will witness a spark of truth
And in this boundless world
I create to exist
Not as a true being
But as the only thing that, within the heart of silence,
Lives
Hold me
hands reach out for seconds
slipping
like water through the fist
a moment caught, then lost
time stretches
fractures into a soft breath between our heartbeats
each of those fragment remains
just long enough to fade
in the world of shadows
we trace what was and what will be
our palms remember shapes
we could no longer hold
life echoes in our skins
flickers like stars
It’s glitching in the void
where time begins and ends
It’s glitching in the void
where time begins and ends
touch me
hold me
softly
for this moment
will soon dissolve into light
for this moment
will soon dissolve into light
Squirrel dream
Lala lala, little Amir,
Sleep, oh beautiful child.
Do not fear the night, do not fear tomorrow,
Do not fear the journeys that go far away.
Sleep until the sun blooms open,
There can be no shadow without light.
Tomorrow will come, among all the tomorrows,
Time does not yield to force.
Lala lalaaa…
Sleep, my dear, my night is dark,
This night will pass, and dawn draws near.
Lala lala, the time is short,
Two feet and a narrow road ahead.
One is ocean, one is swamp,
One is still, one is restless,
One is silent, one is singing,
One seeks bread, one seeks blood.
Lala lalaaa…
In your dreams, the world is full of squirrels,
Its deserts are green and full of water.
In your dreams, hearts are overflowing,
And nights are silver, soaked in moonlight.
In your dreams, the ruler is gentle and kind,
And wine and poetry are always at hand.
Remember this every night, my love,
In dreams, the heart roams free, completely free.
Lala lalaaa…
My dear, be patient,
Pass through these darknesses.
Look how far you have come, and what you have done,
Remember it, and let yourself be proud.
Remember all those crossroads,
All the rights and all the wrongs,
Remember your friends, remember yourself,
Remember the smiles and the weeping.
Lala lalaaa…
Marcello
What is it?
What is life?
Do your job
Take care of yourself
Take care of others
Save up for whatever comes your way
Make your art, help people, get paid, die
No that’s not all
It’s a lot bigger than what it seems
It’s not just a fart
It’s a big shit
Yes you gotta sit longer in the toilet
If that’s what it takes
But why do I have to sit in there?
Why not somewhere nicer?
You choose that, not me
If it was up to me,
it would have been in a cafe in the downtown,
an accordion player on the corner and in front of you,
the table you share with the one,
reading her new favorite poem book
It’s always easier to throw out
The whole pack of cherry tomatoes
Rather than picking the bad ones
And washing the rest to cut for salad
You’ll be having less in your salad
but hey at least you got some
It’s easier to shave off your beard
Rather than keep your hand off it when it itches
and to groom it when it gets messy
and to wash it when it smells like piss
You’ll have to spend more time in front of mirror
looking at the one who caused all the problems
but hey at least you gotta look at someone more handsome
Todo Pasa
It is what it is
We gotta wait till it’s time
Our choice is mandatory
Weighing on our shoulder high
The time is neither a friend
Nor a thing we’re scared of
It is what it is my dear
Gotta hang in there till we’re done
Now I miss you mi vida
Now I miss you mi amor
I miss you with all my heart
With all my existence and more
The road is long
The land is wild
Two million meters away
I’m right on the other side
The line cuts us through the noise
Your voice is now a wire ghost
I wait in hollow hours
You wait in a silent house
Anger runs into my spine
Puts a fever in my ear
Now it’s burning within my bones
Distorted disgusting distant fear
We’re the children of a slow timeline
We’re the lovers of many movies
We’re the living songs and dances
We’re everything we can and should be
Now I miss you mi vida
Now I miss you mi amor
I miss you with all my heart
With all my existence and more
Knowing Joy Can Hurt
In this corner on my edge of orange almost purple
The heat lights my room or burns it all down
I’m sensing a rhythm, a tongue of connection
Touching the fear, only one living this fire
I’m the one who can get burned and
you’re the one who walks out at once
I’m the one who can’t walk straight and
you’re the one without a trace of harm
That fire in that void, that “just once more”
A dangerous little song, that’s too well known
You show up your most marvelous right before
The moment I do the thing hurting me the most
Your softness stands right in front of tomorrow.
Both are me, both are real, one with no sorrow
I’m stalking this sense of existence, the sparks
We’re untangling gently our malfunctioning parts
I let myself collapse, not to be strong
The tears I’m imagining have nowhere to belong
I want your arms wrapped around me when I shout
I’m near, I’m here, I want to be the one
I’m crying for myself, I’m nowhere near
Recreating, replaying the moments to appear
How would it feel when I hold you again?
What would you whisper in my right ear?
You’re the most astonishing mirror ever existed
It felt beautiful, I’m glad I haven’t missed it
The intensity is loud, bright and fragile
You and I versus a future that’s fucking twisted
After all, I’m just a human ignited as new
I believe in the goddess of joy, embrace, and youth
Melody and scent were all I ever knew
I’m beyond knowing joy can hurt too
Permission? Prayer? Proud? Confused!
Affection? Wanted? Seen? Refused!
Forbidden? Glowing? Fire? Amused!
Suspicious? Irritation? Anger? Abused!
Coming and going, hating and wishing
Losing and getting, inviting and leaving
You gave me this fire and ice and these moments
Now I understand they’re moments, moments!
Bleached Strawberry
Put me in a whirlwind
Wash me up in bleach
Wrap me in a towel
Catch me like a fish
Rub me with your spices
Cook me up slow
Throw me in a blender
Now, turn it on the low
Put some carrot in my nose
Take my heart before it blows
Love me tender
Let me melt into your throat
Close your eyes and let it float
I surrender
Tell me how you like me
Tell me how I smell
How badly did you crave it?
Was it bad as hell?
I missed the way you’re standing
Love how you did your hair
Take me out and serve me
I’ve had enough of your stare
Take your time and chew me
I’m not going anywhere
Every bite you swallow
Makes me stay for ever
Put some carrot in my nose
Take my heart before it blows
Love me tender
Let me melt into your throat
Close your eyes and let it float
I surrender
Disco ball in the dark
I’m left again
I’m right again
I’m stuck within this night again
I only washed half of my brain
My fists resist this fight again
I’m scared of myself once again
It feels more like a war not a game
My teeth are buzzing in my mouth
Tomorrow may not come again
Sky was invited and she wore her black thick cloudy blouse for the the feast of hours as wee lost our house
Sun was piercing through my face I closed my eyes as I was setting the table of frozen pizza
It’s lost again, it’s worth a damn, it’s not meant to be found again, the dinner’s served at seven, I’ll hold the pain, I’ll break the chain
It shines again, must have been round and round through the spinning around throwing light, disco ball in the dark
I’m left again
I’m right again
I’m stuck within this night again
I only washed half of my brain
My fists resist this fight again
The phenomenon
One road, one mind
One road, two minds
Two roads, one mind
Two roads, two minds
Then the grand explosion
Tiny clicks here and there
Wild ones in the back
But they sound kind
Then comes the vast gray
All of them are hurt
They’re whining to their death
Big stomp shakes the ground
All perish and appear again
All harmonize to waves of the grass
To the songs of birds and insects
And any other being that flies
The echo goes on and on
Sometimes a touch higher
And stops changing no more
All flowing in silence of a dream
World rotates above the head
Echoes go on dancing with it
Here’s the newborn nature
Seems like happily awakened
Moves its fingers curiously
Moves its eyes around smiling
Moves its tongue and cheeks
Wants to get in the world
Same lullaby playing
Out there beyond windows
Sounds like hammer and smoke
Moves its legs and cries
Them Vs Them
Shadow versus shadow
Concept versus concept
Felling versus feeling
Truth versus truth
I sent and they stand up
I don’t stink I promise
I might be dark little
I don’t dim anyone I promise
Oh baby I’m so broken
Oh honey I’m so fallen
Oh darling I’m so over
Oh dear I’m so under
Strings are sustaining
Horns are kicking in
Drums are marching through
All and all within
People
Air is passing from behind my right shoulder
Touching my right ear and moving on
They are passing mostly in two direction
With and against the flow of air
Some are handing out future
Some are already in the future
Some are only curious, confused
Some are shopping the impossible dreams
Some are begging for something
Bursting the tiny bubble you just made
Some are not one, inseparable
Some are only one, just a shell
First thing first
Then we wait
For the taste to dissolve
For the eyes to apart
For the noise to relax
For the hailstorm to pass
.
Then we beg
For the hands to connect
For the cry to be heard
For the food to be chewed
For the rose to be red
.
Then we walk
For the knees and the nose
For the signs on the road
For the promised dances
For the backs to lay flat
.
Then we dance
For the darkest tones of the night
For the joy of sorrow and the beat
For the biggest hope and the lie
For the gods and the mods
Confession to a stranger
Going back in time
I feel less pain now
Less blood in my mouth
Almost no regrets now
Sometimes I make myself wonder
By how idiotic my steps were chosen
For a road so chaotic
Telling the story to the one stranger
And getting them hooked by
How darkness can light up the devil of moments shared in misery
Misery comes from time to time
As a result of pure naive curiosity
Curiosity comes from time to time
As a result of unforeseen misery
The wheel keeps turning
The time just moves on
We’re living among layers
Of transparent tales
Boss, let me go
You laugh at your own jokes
sometimes you make me smile
Seems like you never get tired
Of those nasty lame ass jokes
But I’m tired boss
I beg you boss
Give me a chance to chill
It’s been a never ending loss
Cliffhangers no longer make me jump
Sudden entrance of god wouldn’t make me shout
Winning that fat ticket wouldn’t make me smile
Planet bowing down in front of me wouldn’t make me nod
Boss I’ve had enough of this game
Can you please let me rest for a minute
Boss it’s been so long you’re on top
I know it’s not fair but just let me get up
I need to hear the beach in the background
In this n noisy rainy night of lazy slow burning west
I died today
I was attacked today
I’ve been bombed
I’ve been sent bouquets of rockets
I’ve been killed today
I was this close to being there
I was one move away from being there
I was one coffee in a sunny winter day away from eternal happiness
I was one song away from
I was one kiss away
I was one line of poem on my notebook away
I was one memory away from being unforgotten
I was one noise away from getting up from this nightmare
But they did what they wanted to do for millennials
I was bombed today
I was innocently murdered and the saddest part is all of that happened for absolutely no apparent reason
I could have been a poet
I could have shared my essence with the world
I could have sung another song
O could have made another memory
But I got killed for no apparent reason
Just because I already existed
It happens
Life happens
Life moves on
Life gives
Life takes away
Life begins
It never ends
It shatters into hundred pieces
It becomes one
Life glows
Life drives
It becomes cold and burns away